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The days I've been for these few weeks, I felt it's tough to been through. All kind of hard feelings came towards me, all I got to do, is to pick it up, eat it, and swallow it. Doubts coming around, hesitating which way I have to go. I have lost myself in the lights, lost my faith. The feelings I had, cannot be written, nor spoken. Deep inside of me, I felt lifeless, I see disappointments, I see the blues, I see the end of my life. I admit, I did think of suicide, I've hurt, I can't get over it, I can't face the truth, I can't face anyone, included myself, I felt shameful and I had embarrassed my parents. I've cried, every night, thought of what I've done, thought what I've heard that shouldn't be heard, thought of how my parents think of me, thought of how the others look upon me, thought of how am I going to continue.... Many many things to think of. Lot of things to tell but can't speak it up, so it's the end of the day. Laughter in days, but what I am in the night? Tears has dried, heart has died. 

三月

啦啦啦~ 这么快又三月了。呵呵，明天就要拿成绩了。说实在的，我差点就忘了，多亏昨晚的噩梦。 呼~ 三月三月，开第六天，本小姐已花了600多令吉，所以现在正式的宣布破产。=.=/// 三月三月，本小姐会过得很充实。很快又要到了，星期六paintball, 星期日出发咯！再多一个礼拜，就要去aquatic course. 还期待好期待。 呵呵。还有，为什么这么多人在三月生日呢？本小姐可没钱送礼物了。三月三月，本小姐终于买了吉他，开始了梦想的第一步。=）