Thursday 31 May 2012

5

我懂了,你的感受。那种很在意,却被伤的感觉。我也不懂,为什么会被你的一句话伤得那么严重。心痛到快要窒息的感觉,要哭也不可以哭,因为全部都是自找的。那天最后一天在槟城,的确很伤心很心痛,我真的不想回去槟城了。来到这里,谁也没想念,却一直想起当天的事情,我不要。可不可以重新开始?我什么回忆都不要,我真的要从零开始,学业友情感情。我真的想把心给挖出来。我恨自己,是不是之前对人太好?结果沦落到这种地步。算了,我不想知道,反正你们已把我这样看待,继续吧,也许好人难当,坏人会好过一点。
很多时候,一些词一些字,不懂该不该写,但这些词这些字,都是我的真心话。就你一个,我不想你把我当着是坏人。='(  xoxo

Sunday 20 May 2012

To whom concerned

Hi there, just to say hi and bye. To whom concerned, I'm here and I'm fine, thanks for you guys concerned. Well, just to update you all about a little bit of my life over here. So the story start here...
I am now studying at Utar, Kampar. Truly, not yet start my study, lived here for the third day only, I started to feel bored, really bored. No TV, No shopping mall, No Cinema, NO NO NO, all a big NO NO. Gosh, I am so afraid that when I got home after 4 years, I will become 'orang hutan'. Things are kinda outdated here. Anyway, still, I can't adapt yet. Sleepless night is killing me. Hardly to fall asleep and easily to awake. Kampar is a really tiny and a little outdated city. Not really a city actually. The life here, is really boring, not much entertainment. I wonder, how those people survive here. Without those advanced gadgets and internet, I would properly die of boredom. The most entertaining things, I not manage to bring it here, and I am so damn regret now. That is my baby- guitar. Well, not much things to do here. Routine of day, wake up and go to school, out for lunch, and now we had the time to shop and hanging around. I haven't start my study yet, just brought along a few reference books and story books. I am so tired, like seriously, thanks to my brain, for the sleepless night. And I had no idea what happened to me, just feeling my stomach not pretty good, and had diarrhea once. So that's all, and thanks to you all who concerned, the text the messages the wishes and the prays, thanks a lot. They made me felt warm and meant a lot to me. 

P/s: I have updated mine, as you told me to do so, and I will try to update here often so that you will know how is my life here. How are you? I know you are not alright, and sadly I can't make the last meeting with you. Just want you to know that I am always here for you, no matter where are you or where am I. I just want you to be happy. Just make anything and everything simple and contain yourself, that's all. Well, I know you are reading this and I know you get who and what I meant. I read a sentence last night in my story book, I think it's what I wanted to tell you. Here you go. And all the best to you. Love you always. xoxo
"问题是生活的调味料"

Thursday 10 May 2012

4

性格極端敏感、佔有慾強、重度精神潔癖強
沒事喜歡胡思亂想
有時候,發現身邊的人都不瞭解自己
面對身邊的人、突然覺得說不出話
有時候
在自己脆弱的時候
想一個人躲起來
不願別人看到自己的傷口
有時候
突然很想逃離現在的生活
想不顧一切收拾簡單的行李去流浪
心裡想什麼從來不說、別人也猜不到
不喜歡受別人限制
不擅交際
一般情況下不喜歡說太多
只是不知道該怎麼說出口
不要當三瓶女人:
年輕時是花瓶
中年時是醋瓶
老年時是藥瓶

不要做三轉女人:
圍着鍋台轉
圍着老公轉
圍着孩子轉

做三獨立女人:
思想獨立
能力獨立
經濟獨立

三養女人:
修養
涵養
保養;

三麗女人:
美麗
能力
魅力

明明在深愛、卻表達不完美
明知要放棄、卻不甘心就此離開
明知是煎熬、卻又躱不掉
明知無前路、心卻早已收不回來
明知會受傷、卻不願意放手
明知要等待、卻傻傻的獨自寂寞
明明不聯繫、卻會拚命的想起對方
別人一句也許無心的話
或者一個無意識的舉動
開始胡思亂想、開始患得患失