Dr. Dre headphone

Monster Game® T1 Daft Punk Limited Edition Over-Ear Electronic Music Headphones -

I've been crazy that I can't stop thinking to get Dr. Dre headphone. It's a dream for me to get one. It's easy to get but I can't afford to get one. So it still a dream. Look at this headphone, it's so cool, isn't it??? Like it so much. Guess what? It costs $349.95. I think it's about RM1100. Plus those taxes, how much will it costs??? Well, just dream.

June

JUNE =FINEASS
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takesrep pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly.spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
What do you think about that? =)

精神寄托

把面子书关掉了，前几天埋怨着生活的无趣。因为脚受伤，哪里都去不了。直到前几天，闷慌了，一直发牢骚，还好朋友的到来，陪伴我。就算不是很长的时间，但总觉得满足。也许当时的精神用在他们陪伴我吧。他们走了，我又闷慌了。游戏玩腻了，不喜欢看电视，面子书没了。朋友借我一本书，读着读着，时间过得快多了。那本书不错，一本激励人心的书。我这几天在想，我往年都把精神寄托在电脑里了。电脑变成了我最最要好的伙伴。我开心时，找它；我伤心时，找它；我烦恼时，找它；我睡不着时，找它。由它，我的时间会好过一些。我就沉迷在那幻想世界里，与现实社会的抗拒，让我更沉迷在那网络花花世界里。庆幸的是，我在那花花世界还很清醒，没被骗财骗色，更没在网络上交那些不知名不知脸的人物。我的精神就一直在那电脑里，直到这几天，精神恢复‘正常’。读了书，心灵有了滋润，心情自然好起来。读一些书刊，远远好过整天躲在那花花世界里玩捉谜场。现在虽然还是避免不了那种上网的欲望，但终于克服得了。我的生活部闷了，还有书本的陪伴。愿我在书本与书刊读物的陪伴成长，壮大知识，开窍我的头脑，发掘我得才能。有书真好。=)

永无止境的知识来源

The 4th day

Today is the 4th day my foot injured. Damn, I'm so bored and I can't go anywhere. And I have no idea what's wrong with my stupid phone that I can't receive single message from my friends. I deactivated my facebook and I was like totally lost contact with the world. I'm bored!!! I can't stop playing PSP although I have deactivated facebook. Indeed, I wish the incident was a dream but in fact it's real. I accidentally kicked my foot last night. OUCH! Damn hurt. ='( It still swollen and look awful. Yucks. I can't do anything as I can't walk, I can't jog, I can't run but only jumping. I jump faster than I walk. But it's very tiring. After all I think I'll build up my right leg muscle and fit thigh. I felt the pain on the wound and stitches because I don't take Panadol today. So instead of walking, I'm jumping today. I think I will have big butt pretty soon as I just keep on sitting but not moving. I just can't sit still. I'm BORED!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How long I still have to suffer this??? By the way, time to study. No more games. ='(

Injury

I went to practice monkey run after school yesterday, together with my classmate Jonathan. My toes were crushed by machine and luckily there's no bone fracture. Skin tissues torn and had been sew. Now I just can't walk because I can't step properly on the ground. I have to jump like kangaroo. It's so tiring jumping here and there to move and I sweat a lot. I can walk but very slow, I rather jump than walk. And just sad because I felt sorry to my parents. I'm just like a black sheep, all the bad lucks are on me. Last year, bitten by dog, and bleed like hell, and this time, crushed by machine, bleed like hell too! I was there and shouting like no body business, I knew everyone was looking at me. It's so damn pain. My mom asked me, did you cry when your toes was crushing into the machine? The answer is nope. And yes it's true, I don't cry for that pain. I cried in the hospital and the nurse thought I was in pain but actually I cried because I felt so sorry to my parents. I made them worry. Indeed, I felt myself is a burden to them. My mom said me 'ban pui' (in hokkien) then I don't really know what it means. She said when I was a child, I'm different with other children. When the doctor going to give injection to me, I don't cry, not as other children, my mom said. The other children, included my brother, cried loudly. I said that's good. *feeling of proud. But my mom said not good. I still don't understand why she said that but anyway, now I just have to concentrate and utilize my 9 days MC. Great, now I can't go anymore and my parents happy for that, because the are going overseas soon. Sigh. I just don't understand why all these unlucky things happened on me. I've been bitten by dog, I've been crushed by machine, what else I not yet been through? I shall look forward and wait for it. 

Personalities

A split personality is when a person can be two different personalities at one time. On occasion they can appear nice, helpful, a good friend or even a good lover and without warning they could become selfish, arrogant and cruel. They flip back and forth between the two personalities.


I went to take a career test due to my personality. Well, same situation again. I got 2 distinct personalities. It's alright if anyone have 2 or more personalities but when it comes to 2 distinct personalities, it's really hard to identify what field I have to choose. Even the counselor got shocked and terrified and she said, why so hard? Haha. She asked me to come back after 6 months time. She said it's normal if the people like age of mine having 2 personalities, but I'm urging to find out who really I am and where I belongs to. The counselor said, after STPM, I should sit and calm myself, asking myself deeply, who am I. I think I asked myself for many times, ended up with no answer. *Knocking, hello, anyone inside? Lol. I'm urging, I really want to know. I'm like crazy doing research and information on split personalities and I think the definition I've found above is just same when comes to my situation. But split personalities redirects as dissociative identity disorder, which the symptoms is nothing related to my situation. Another thing I've found: Dissociative identity disorder (previously known as multiple personality disorder) is a fairly common effect of severe trauma during early childhood, usually extreme, repetitive physical, sexual, and/or emotional abuse. People suffering from such disorders indulge in daydreaming or get lost in the moment while working on a project. It is a severe form of dissociation, a mental process, which produces a lack of connection in a person's thoughts, memories, feelings, actions, or sense of identity. Dissociative identity disorder is thought to stem from trauma experienced by the person with the disorder. The dissociative aspect is thought to be a coping mechanism -- the person literally dissociates himself from a situation or experience that's too violent, traumatic, or painful to assimilate with his conscious self. I think it is quite true as I had trauma in my childhood. It's nothing related to STPM. 42 days to go. But I really want to know who exactly I am. I shall look into the mirror and start to ask myself everyday. 

单身潜逃

突然，脑袋出现了这首歌的旋律。也许，代表着我现在的心情吧。你说，我没办法一天不联络他。我也很干脆，想想，这是很不错的提议。如果，我忍不住，就代表我真的喜欢了，没有，那就算了。我告诉他，两天不联络。看吧，我的心情会是怎样。今天的心情，其实是很开心，很兴奋，我也不懂为什么。现在的心情有点沉重了。=)

放空着

今天又是平静的一天。不是普通的平静，而是心里异常的平静。无疑，最近就是在烦那些事。首先，就是学业，第二，就是感情。学业嘛，就是一落千丈，没救了。现在只等死。我想是不是我当初决定是个错误。想想，我又给自己改了计划。以前都在说，只给自己两条路，一是科学，二是美术，没有了。现在，想了又想，要不让转行吧。就读生意。毕业后，半工半读。这是计划之一。但依我对自己的了解，执行的几率，达不到50%。因为到现在我也一样不是很喜欢。时间会改变一个人。我就是爱钱爱疯了，所以我为了钱而执行也不稀奇。看着办吧。没错，时间改变了我。短短1年半，我觉得改变不少吧。至少比较成熟了。看回去年的照片，我被吓了一跳。那是我吗？看看去年的自己，眼神是那么的单纯？不是说样貌的改变，而是感觉。我对我自己的感觉变了，我看着自己变了。别人说都一样，但我怎觉得不一样？算了，变就变，但以回不到从前的日子了。说不定哪更好呢？哈哈。接下来，就是感情。恭喜我吧，终于都有感情问题了。我常引以为傲的，就是我没感情问题，不用烦，现在‘有排烦啦’。呼~ 我到底是怎样？自己的感情都不明白，不了解。是不是就那么被伤了一次，就没办法喜欢上别人了？被人爱，多好。我感受到，他的爱，比我当时的喜欢还要深。我对他的感觉就是不一样，那是喜欢吗? 我知道，我很自私。我渴望接受你的爱，但我的爱没办法想你的爱那么深。我可以接受，但我不想欺骗你的感情。也许这是我仅剩的良知吧。我的感觉，到底是怎样，我还不清楚。是因为我可怜你吗？我很害怕，我对你的感觉，对你的好感，对你的喜欢，是不是因为我可怜你。还有5天。5天。5天。看着办吧。希望不会是我的自私，我可怜你，才接受你吧。今天的心情和脑袋有放空一天。

Good morning

Good morning everyone, I got hot chocolate in my mug. Enjoying.

This is not my mug. XD

No doubt, I skipped school today. I just felt that I need a rest. That's all. My heart and my mind are getting tired and tired. It's like a disease with no cure. The negative thinking poisoned my body. Well, after prom, after relay for life, I'm setting free, and it's the time to fight. I went for PA seminar yesterday, in Wawasan Open University. I was acting like a stupid maniac, because I thought that: Wow, finally I get into University. It's just for a seminar okay??? Sigh. Back to the point, I felt that the note and the speakers helped me a lot, although I felt asleep at a certain moment. =X Micheal Ng is a very great speaker, and he gave us a lot or motivations. At the beginning of the seminar, he leaded us to sing a song, The Reason.

I heard this song before, repeated by the radio, but I don't know the song's name. Now I knew. After that, the seminar began. Before the seminar ended, the last 20 minutes, he motivated us with telling us some real stories of his ex-students, and also shouted some slogans. Sigh. Did I motivate? No. I'm just like a stubborn hard rock - cannot be moved! I hate, I don't like myself, being so discourage. He said prove to those looking down at you, blah blah blah. I'm burst, tears coming out. Ya, I felt I'm stupid at that time, just like a crying maniac. Concentrate and focus can make miracle. Is that true? Or just a crap to motivate us. He said a boy start to fight at last 60 days, end up he scored 4As. Now is the time to study without understanding, as long as you can get answer. LOL. Well, I think this one is the most specific and true one. "Every second and minute counts" Instead of talking non sense, I shall leave here right now. 

P/s: I'm addicted to Internet seriously, anyone who see me on the line please ask me to get out from here. =(

Prom 2011

Well well well, finally here comes the night. Everyone waited for so long time, and finally, everything ends. It was a very busy Friday, I'm tired but I don't even have a chance to take a nap. Heading to salon at 3.00pm, right after school. Unpleasant incident happened. What can i say? That's my fault, and it's true, money do hurts relationship. After all, I don't really like myself in makeup. Looks very weird. Everyone said I'm different, and they can't recognize me. I should proud of that or sad? Hahaha. And heels, killing me! But made me 'grow' taller for a night. I'm satisfied.

U6Sc1 models. 

School family

Friends

Bestie, thank you for being my companion to get all my stuff done.

My lucky draw gift

Guess what? This is the first time I won a lucky draw, but look at what I get? A welcome dog. Kinda sarcastic. Nothing much to say. I had a surprise on that night and I even felt that I'm still dreaming right now. Anyway, I'll try to go on my own way. Will get this fix before my exam. Too many things to explain. I wished you understand. =)