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Recently I've been busying for studies, assignments and an event. I've got a minor post instead of high post, enrolled myself as an assistant of cert and souvenir manager. Hmm. Sounds not bad as an assistant manager. But, here comes the problem. I felt myself no longer myself, is like, I don't like to do event anymore, don't like to involve in an event anymore. Where's the enthusiasm gone? I felt even more pressure instead of the happiness. Well, part of my thought have been change. No longer staying actively for outdoor activities, prefer study and read instead. Good thing or poor thing?
Besides that, I think I'm going mad. I have came across many thoughts, ideas, daydreaming about what am I going to do in my future. As a researcher I meant, do research on genes, I think I got influenced as I studying modern biology in this semester. More things yet to be discovered and I am here started to think what am I going to enclose these mysteries. I never think of Nobel prize, it's a dream but not an achievement for me. I really like this semester biology but why my result is not good??? =( I can't stop myself to think about all these stuffs, I think I'm going mad and crazy, I think I might be a mad scientist if I really can be a scientist. I"m just too excited and I don't mind myself live madly because of these, instead I felt so amazing and proud that I could come out with these non practical and non ethical experiment. I love myself and I could sink myself in the sea of genes. Who knows if I carry out the experiment secretly although it is illegal?  More ways and days to go. I shall jot down all these ideas before I forgot, for my future. Hehehe.....