Nobody's perfect

Yes, indeed, nobody's perfect. I liked this song, so much. I'm still turning myself into the perfect one, but I drown at the same time while pushing myself to the way of perfect. 50 days to go for STPM. Everyone saying I can make it, but I don't think I can. I'm scared. Really really scare. Such a coward. I don't felt like going anywhere, just leave me alone. Tomorrow is my prom night, why don't I feel excited, anymore? I lose faith in the event, anyway, the main problem is me, nobody else. As I said, I don't felt like going anywhere as I don't actually want to attend. Since I've paid and bought everything. I've been so upset. I think there's pretty long time I don't cry for my result, is not actually crying, just tears drop, who knows? Who knows the pain and the faith inside me? Who knows the facts I really facing? Who knows what's the problems that I need to go through? Who knows??? Nobody knows. Everyone thought I was joking, playing and fooling around all the time, even exam is coming nearer and nearer. I keep telling myself: Yes, you can make it. Is that just a lie to myself? Helping myself to get through the tough days? No, in fact it's opposite. Yes, I'm fooling around everyday, who wants to show and see your sad face everyday? I'm really having troubles and there's lot of problems disturbing me. Yes yes yes! It's true, I'm not happy at all. I'm sick of everyone keep asking whether I'm okay. I want to be fine as you wished! My stupid brain can't stop thinking the non sense. It's actually not non sense, that's my problems. and troubles. I'm not okay I'm not okay. Am I suppose to tell you all that? Am I? Should I? No one can be trusted. I've been acting like TNT and I'm explosive. So I'm danger and keep out from me. 

Movies marathon

Planned to have movies marathon but failed actually. The time crushed, but still manage to watch 2 movies today. The ticket price increased? I don't really know about that until today I bought it at RM11, kinda expensive. 1st movie: Abduction

Starred by Taylor Lautner

Ya, he's the one played the 'shark kid' in the Spy Kid many years ago, when I was in primary school. I remembered that because he's handsome and cute since he's a child when starred the Spy Kid, and he's cool! I'm just kinda admire him. And today he's a muscular handsome man, was Taylor Swift boyfriend. Anyway, just nothing to do with me. But his face looks immature, still got the kid looks. Ya, he isn't old, still a teenager. The movie is just 'so-so' for me and I think not really interesting. All the parties trying to get the top secret as Nathan is just a innocent guy. Blah blah blah. Alright, the 2nd movie: Bridesmaids

Starred by old ladies???

Well, because of queuing to buy popcorn, I missed out the front part. I think all the characters played in the movie, were having attitude problems. Among friends, jealousy, overwhelming and trying to show that they are the best one. Dar~ I don't like this, if I was the bride. The movie was about friendship the most. Most of the sentences contained 'fucking' which caused the movie has been 18PL/SX-ed? Haha. And almost talking about sex. =.=..... The funniest thing in the movie was the wedding dress. That's funny because it made the bride looks like cake! Haha.

Well, I don't feel any better after watching the movies. Anyway, thanks Pei Yong and Lingyin who accompanied me for the movies. We're going to declare bankrupt pretty soon. =(

P/s: Yi Mei asked me to mention her in my blog which I have nothing to write on her. Just to mention, LOKE YI MEI, I felt annoyed and irritated that you keep 'like-ing' all my wall posts. =((((

Fed up

Currently felt fed up to myself. What the hell is going on? I'm almost on the way to hang myself. Is that something wrong? I felt very tired and gonna fall sleep just in any moment. Today I'm late to school. My math paper started at 7.45am. Luckily Wen Hui called me which the call woke me up. Thanks a lot or else I'm gonna miss the paper. Just pretty tired no matter how much I rest. Seasick?? LOL. Dizzy for days and felt like I'm on a ship, with great storm. My mom said maybe caused by my blood pressure. Daaa~ Low blood pressure? Even when I look into myself in the mirror, ya, that's a ghost, totally pale and white. =.= Anyway, don't tease me or being sarcastic to me. I'm totally not in mood recently. I don't know what will I do after all. I just wanna box and fight. Kinda explosive bomb, TNT, whatever. Just don't drive me crazy. Thank you.

心理障碍

还是过不了自己那一关。再次打击了我。不懂如何再去面对。不想考了。。。

Has been a while

Has been a while I left here. I got many things to share here actually but, the moment I clicked on new post, I felt like not posting an article anymore, I felt insecure. STPM coming nearer and nearer. I was thinking, I'm not able to finish and complete my study. Dreams diminished. Sitting for trail yet playing games all the time. I still can't get rid the bad habits of mine. Today sat for MUET paper 4, I'm really a jerk. What the hell on earth I'm doing?? Screw myself. I done question 1 in only 20 minutes which the suggested time was 40 minutes. That's not a good sign. Finished before time doesn't mean I know, doesn't mean to get good grade for sure. Question 2: "If it's claimed that parents know best as far as careers concerned." Understand? I can't really get it but the points and answers that I was doubting about is true and correct. But what I did? Writing shit and craps on the paper. I wonder, will teacher understand what I was writing about? Even myself don't understand what I'm writing. Too less confidence. I not dare to take the challenge. So I regret after that. I just can't balance my confidence. It's either no confidence at all, or over confidence. I drove, the 3rd day, I scratch on people's car. What happen on me? I'm very confidence of my driving skills. But after that happened, I lost it. I was stressed out  when I drive everyday. Sucks. I need it. Especially in exam, I don't wish it happen again. I can make it better, I knew, but when can I make it and take it? Guess what? I read a news, which is about a girl got scholarship and overboard, going to study heart surgery in Cambridge. So what's the special? The only thing is, she's only 14! I was terrified! What the??? What I was doing when I'm 14???  

Human emotion cannot be told without the eyes. True?