Dr. Dre headphone

Monster Game® T1 Daft Punk Limited Edition Over-Ear Electronic Music Headphones -

I've been crazy that I can't stop thinking to get Dr. Dre headphone. It's a dream for me to get one. It's easy to get but I can't afford to get one. So it still a dream. Look at this headphone, it's so cool, isn't it??? Like it so much. Guess what? It costs $349.95. I think it's about RM1100. Plus those taxes, how much will it costs??? Well, just dream.

June

JUNE =FINEASS
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you. You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takesrep pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly.spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
What do you think about that? =)

精神寄托

把面子书关掉了，前几天埋怨着生活的无趣。因为脚受伤，哪里都去不了。直到前几天，闷慌了，一直发牢骚，还好朋友的到来，陪伴我。就算不是很长的时间，但总觉得满足。也许当时的精神用在他们陪伴我吧。他们走了，我又闷慌了。游戏玩腻了，不喜欢看电视，面子书没了。朋友借我一本书，读着读着，时间过得快多了。那本书不错，一本激励人心的书。我这几天在想，我往年都把精神寄托在电脑里了。电脑变成了我最最要好的伙伴。我开心时，找它；我伤心时，找它；我烦恼时，找它；我睡不着时，找它。由它，我的时间会好过一些。我就沉迷在那幻想世界里，与现实社会的抗拒，让我更沉迷在那网络花花世界里。庆幸的是，我在那花花世界还很清醒，没被骗财骗色，更没在网络上交那些不知名不知脸的人物。我的精神就一直在那电脑里，直到这几天，精神恢复‘正常’。读了书，心灵有了滋润，心情自然好起来。读一些书刊，远远好过整天躲在那花花世界里玩捉谜场。现在虽然还是避免不了那种上网的欲望，但终于克服得了。我的生活部闷了，还有书本的陪伴。愿我在书本与书刊读物的陪伴成长，壮大知识，开窍我的头脑，发掘我得才能。有书真好。=)

永无止境的知识来源

The 4th day

Today is the 4th day my foot injured. Damn, I'm so bored and I can't go anywhere. And I have no idea what's wrong with my stupid phone that I can't receive single message from my friends. I deactivated my facebook and I was like totally lost contact with the world. I'm bored!!! I can't stop playing PSP although I have deactivated facebook. Indeed, I wish the incident was a dream but in fact it's real. I accidentally kicked my foot last night. OUCH! Damn hurt. ='( It still swollen and look awful. Yucks. I can't do anything as I can't walk, I can't jog, I can't run but only jumping. I jump faster than I walk. But it's very tiring. After all I think I'll build up my right leg muscle and fit thigh. I felt the pain on the wound and stitches because I don't take Panadol today. So instead of walking, I'm jumping today. I think I will have big butt pretty soon as I just keep on sitting but not moving. I just can't sit still. I'm BORED!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How long I still have to suffer this??? By the way, time to study. No more games. ='(

Injury

I went to practice monkey run after school yesterday, together with my classmate Jonathan. My toes were crushed by machine and luckily there's no bone fracture. Skin tissues torn and had been sew. Now I just can't walk because I can't step properly on the ground. I have to jump like kangaroo. It's so tiring jumping here and there to move and I sweat a lot. I can walk but very slow, I rather jump than walk. And just sad because I felt sorry to my parents. I'm just like a black sheep, all the bad lucks are on me. Last year, bitten by dog, and bleed like hell, and this time, crushed by machine, bleed like hell too! I was there and shouting like no body business, I knew everyone was looking at me. It's so damn pain. My mom asked me, did you cry when your toes was crushing into the machine? The answer is nope. And yes it's true, I don't cry for that pain. I cried in the hospital and the nurse thought I was in pain but actually I cried because I felt so sorry to my parents. I made them worry. Indeed, I felt myself is a burden to them. My mom said me 'ban pui' (in hokkien) then I don't really know what it means. She said when I was a child, I'm different with other children. When the doctor going to give injection to me, I don't cry, not as other children, my mom said. The other children, included my brother, cried loudly. I said that's good. *feeling of proud. But my mom said not good. I still don't understand why she said that but anyway, now I just have to concentrate and utilize my 9 days MC. Great, now I can't go anymore and my parents happy for that, because the are going overseas soon. Sigh. I just don't understand why all these unlucky things happened on me. I've been bitten by dog, I've been crushed by machine, what else I not yet been through? I shall look forward and wait for it. 

Personalities

A split personality is when a person can be two different personalities at one time. On occasion they can appear nice, helpful, a good friend or even a good lover and without warning they could become selfish, arrogant and cruel. They flip back and forth between the two personalities.


I went to take a career test due to my personality. Well, same situation again. I got 2 distinct personalities. It's alright if anyone have 2 or more personalities but when it comes to 2 distinct personalities, it's really hard to identify what field I have to choose. Even the counselor got shocked and terrified and she said, why so hard? Haha. She asked me to come back after 6 months time. She said it's normal if the people like age of mine having 2 personalities, but I'm urging to find out who really I am and where I belongs to. The counselor said, after STPM, I should sit and calm myself, asking myself deeply, who am I. I think I asked myself for many times, ended up with no answer. *Knocking, hello, anyone inside? Lol. I'm urging, I really want to know. I'm like crazy doing research and information on split personalities and I think the definition I've found above is just same when comes to my situation. But split personalities redirects as dissociative identity disorder, which the symptoms is nothing related to my situation. Another thing I've found: Dissociative identity disorder (previously known as multiple personality disorder) is a fairly common effect of severe trauma during early childhood, usually extreme, repetitive physical, sexual, and/or emotional abuse. People suffering from such disorders indulge in daydreaming or get lost in the moment while working on a project. It is a severe form of dissociation, a mental process, which produces a lack of connection in a person's thoughts, memories, feelings, actions, or sense of identity. Dissociative identity disorder is thought to stem from trauma experienced by the person with the disorder. The dissociative aspect is thought to be a coping mechanism -- the person literally dissociates himself from a situation or experience that's too violent, traumatic, or painful to assimilate with his conscious self. I think it is quite true as I had trauma in my childhood. It's nothing related to STPM. 42 days to go. But I really want to know who exactly I am. I shall look into the mirror and start to ask myself everyday. 

单身潜逃

突然，脑袋出现了这首歌的旋律。也许，代表着我现在的心情吧。你说，我没办法一天不联络他。我也很干脆，想想，这是很不错的提议。如果，我忍不住，就代表我真的喜欢了，没有，那就算了。我告诉他，两天不联络。看吧，我的心情会是怎样。今天的心情，其实是很开心，很兴奋，我也不懂为什么。现在的心情有点沉重了。=)