世界末日

Title有点夸张，但是真的啦。等一下考两张papers叻，不末日才怪。谁叫我不努力，整个下午在看戏，现在凌晨1•15，看我怎样死。我不睡觉啦。等下8.00 bio paper 2,说真的，我真的没动到。我怀疑自己，到底是真的喜欢bio吗？突然觉得Chem比bio容易，因为不用背奇奇怪怪的名字。不写了，我不惜减七年的生命，换来我最后一天的拼命。说实在，我现在很累，但如果我睡觉，我会对不起自己一生。今天before考chem paper 1，紧张到胃痛。妈妈call来，问情况如何。就告诉她紧张到胃痛。她叫我不要紧张，尽力就好。驾着车，听到这么温馨的话，差点飙泪，但也很对不起，我没尽力。要不是回想你说过的话，我现在已放弃，睡觉去了。我太感性了，这是遗传，哈哈。有时候父母的一句话，已经是我最好的鼓励与精神。谢啦。读书去。愿我把两本bio都能读完。

原来

突然有点感触，刚刚和家人吃了晚餐。姨姨要买鞋，就去鞋店。东挑西挑，要买的是高跟鞋。我也帮忙看了几眼。爸爸突然问我：＂不要买一双吗？＂他指的是高跟鞋。＂我已经有了啊。＂他有点惊讶。＂就上去prom night要穿，就买了一双。" 原来他不知道他的女儿已经会穿高跟鞋。说得也是，我身上不是运动装就是休闲装，脚上的不是球鞋就是拖鞋。他从来没看过我化妆穿裙的样子。嗨。我已经好久没和他住在一起了。还有彼此的了解吗?有点纳闷。自从有了新家，他就搬去那边住了。以前偶尔会去那边住，但是现在已没了。自从六年级，就没住在一起了。现在去新家，掀开衣柜，都是以前六年级至中二的衣服吧。这就是我每次提起后，别人觉得我的家庭很怪吗？我每次都没注意，反正我没放在心上，我还是一样幸福。也许习惯了没有他的陪伴，才会常想独自有个屋子吧。是遗传吗？我想他还有很多我不知道的事，我也有很多他不知道的事。我只知道，从我出生到现在，他爱我就是事实，我还是很幸福。 ＼(^o^)／ xoxo. ILY.

Party

I just came home from zi Wei's 19th birthday party. Thanks for treating us to red box. Feel so cheerful with all my beloved friends, we have been 2 years never seen each other since the high school graduation. Well, flash backed to my high school life, thanks them who been through together with me, especially those friends been apart for sometimes, last, we are still friends. Some were friends but went come to the obstacles, they will just leave you to face the problem alone. I really appreciate my friends who always be my side, we've been cheers together, we've been cried together, we grown together. Sincerely, grateful to have you all, that's enough for me, I don't pray for more. This party is just the right time, although some of us are sitting for STPM. Thinking how much time can we spend together? We've been spending time together since form 1, until now. Imaging if everyone of us, going and fighting for our future, who is still by your side? All of us living our own life. I'm just sad when it came across my mind. I barely, hardly, sadly, to leave you all, or you leave me. You will know who's the real friends. I've been through when came into form 6. Although form 6 is only one and a half year, but I just felt like I've been more than 2 years, just can't imaging that what I've been through. Once again, look at the photos, I really miss the moment that we are together. Well, I hope that the trip after STPM can successfully held, the last time we can spend together I think. After all, most of you guys are going to KL. At this moment I just hope I'm Peter pan that live in Neverland, or Netherland? I don't remember, just wish the time stop. In fact it can't, life going on. Anyway, once again happy birthday to zi Wei again, wish you can get at least B for all your subjects, pass is not enough yay. Hahaha. Hope all of us get good results. I never know I've spend half day with you all, until my mom called, I wish to spend more time with you guys. We are laughters. I think I'm as happy as the birthday girl, or even happier. Really a great day. Love you guys. Xoxo

甜点

心情不好，来些甜点吧。=)

草莓始终是我的最爱

不懂为什么，小时候已吃就爱上它。第一次吃的时候就在金马伦。吃了，觉得很幸福。甜甜又酸酸，让人皱了眉却同时甜了心房。就是那种幸福感。但那种感觉吃不回来了。也许那种幸福感是天真无瑕的时候才能吃出来。小时候告诉妈妈时，妈妈还讲我傻的。我对一个事物的看法，从没有人了解。也许该说我的看法独特，没人了解。这就是我所谓的艺术。哈哈。但今天吃不到草莓，算了，就吃巧克力吧。昨天做了小番茄加巧克力，不错，只是手艺不到家，没法让人看了想吃的感觉。自己开心就好。我，现在需要很多甜点。何时再能吃到那幸福的草莓？　

心情突然变得低落。不懂为什么，太多东西想了。算了，还是不写吧。等考完试了再说。我不想影响你的情绪，毕竟考试比较重要。好好读吧，你是个有前途的。就别管我了，任由我放纵，毕竟我好像还不懂死字怎么写。加油吧。

Housefly

Housefly. Ya I am talking about myself. After sat for the PA paper 2, I felt like I had finished my exam. Slacking around at home at playing iPad. Can't stop playing that. Hell, bought it at the wrong time. I saw some guys status stated that they're going to college after stpm. Hmmm... I'm hesitating where to go? My future is still a midst. With my damn dumb attitude. My future is still a midst, shall think that after results come out. Well, today I made my favorite dessert- baby tomato covered by chocolate. I discovered something. When chocolate started to melt, and at certain temperature, it couldn't melt anymore, which consider as overheat. I was using cooking chocolate, and, chocolate is oily!!! You'll never know until you wash the dishes, much more oily then normal food. And my skill is not good enough. The chocolate can't condensed nicely on the tomato. Anyway, my family members like it. I'm happy enough. =] I'm easy to satisfy right? I have waited for day to make the dessert. I waited my mom to buy the nice tomato from market. Real big enough, I can't finish in a bite. After all I have to continue study my biology and chemistry. Lots of stuff to memorize. Well, PA paper 2 had declared dead. I can't finished in time! Hell no!!! The last time I'm doing this paper and this is the first time I can't finish in time. And I knew I had an essay wrote wrongly. Imaging the whole paper will come out with all TR TR TR!!!! I'll cry-to-death. Is that possible to get A for PA? I hope I still can get it.
*oh hell I don't know how to post my photo from iPad. T.T shall keep the baby tomato in my stomach. XP

I AM SO NERVOUS!!!!!!

DAMN I'M FREAKING NERVOUS RIGHT NOW!!!! Asthma please don't attack me tomorrow. I shall prepare gastric pills. DAMN DAMN DAMN!!!

Stuff list

Here here here came my stuff list!!! I'm so excited about it. Well, these are the things I must get it. Probably I'll get it next year. 

1. ipod nano (RM499)

2. Guitar (RM300)

3. Headphone (RM200)

4. Court shoe (RM200)

That is my budget. I won't get the things higher price than this. Well, Zw said wanna go travel to overseas. If the I go with the plan, the first one will be TRAVEL! Hahahaha. My love. I just like to go travel. But alone or with friends. I think I will take a long time to stay at the place. To observe, and enjoy of course. Overseas??? Where to go??? I wanna go Singapore, I wanna go London, I wanna go Paris, I wanna go New York. Omg!!! Can't stop thinking of it. You'll find I like to go to cities. I'm urbanized. <3

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Dreams

Sincerely, how can I stop my brain from dreaming when sleeping? I totally have no idea how to solve this problem. It annoyed me, ruined my daily life, seriously. STPM is getting nearer and nearer, and my damn stupid idiot brain, cannot get enough of rest and cannot study as well. What I do that make me concentrate, the only thing, math. Just work out my brain by doing math, again and again. Somehow I just can't sit still and study. I have no idea why it's happening on me. Even I woke early and went to school, I can't get myself better. Backed home, about to take a 30 minutes nap, ended up by dreaming again and I took 3 hours nap. And waking up with  more tiring brain. All the dreams, are simple and real, all about my living life. Sometimes I just confused, I thought I did that before, but it's not real; I thought I never did before, but in fact I did. Crap! What I'm talking about?? Anyway, I wished that STPM is not getting nearer but it cannot be dreams anymore. I hope that I can have peace night, don't ever wish me "night, sweet dreams", NEVER! It is a myth. Scientist can't tell that why human dreams and the type of dreams that they dreams. Or maybe I left out something? Shall do a research after my exam. Now FOCUS! I feel like slapping myself all the time. The reason why I update and came out with this article, I felt unhappy, I felt lonely, I felt depressed, I felt sad. I felt unhappy because there are many things making me frustrated, I felt lonely because I hope I can have a talk with them but they are not on the line, I felt depressed because I cannot study right now, I felt sad because all of the reasons bringing me down. DAMN! I just want to be a robot. No feeling, just do what you plan. That's it.

Nice robot, like it. <3